Realize...

Knowing everything was awful as I went along...
All it took was one comment,
one comment to let it hit me
this is all is for nothing
I am good enough. You told me so yourself.
I can be up there with the best and I prove it often.
You tell me all this... I'm beginning to realize what you tell me is crap.
All of it is a big lie.
You are great you do all of this right, you are handling this situation great.
But what you don't know is that I handle it alone... and put on a smile when I'm around you.
It is terrible. You are hurting a vast amount of people.
All of your stupid decisions are hurting more then just me.
You are helping a couple of people. That is it..
But have you realized there are more of us out there that you will have to deal with way longer then the three you daily try to impress.
You need to take a moment and think about what you are doing.
Is this supposed to be fun? Because it's not... It is no longer fun. It is just drama and I'm sick of it all. I have just realized that this is all a big game to you.. and I don't want to be caught up in it. So I am slowly pulling myself out each and everyday. Pretty soon I will be done with it all. Will you care? Who knows... honestly I could care less at this point.

Winterfest was a blast...
The people were fun!
I also love dancing with friends
It was very fun to see Annabelle win.
I thought she deserved the hat (:
She is very sweet and nice to everyone.
I thought the dj could have used some work but besides that it was a blast!

Why is all we do anymore...
text message each other
facebook chat each other
pretend we are best friends on the phone and ignore each other at school

What has happened to our sense of communication?
It used to be showing up at your friends house and hanging out all day.
Telling each other what you wanted to say when you were together instead of waiting to text it out
Taking the risk in person so you can see the other person's actual face

We should not be so glued to the internet and phones and love life seeing and living the fun things around us.

sometimes it's almost too much pressure
I understand it is for the best
But why aren't you pushing everyone else as much as me
Maybe if you did our team would want to win
maybe we would go out trying to win instead of trying not to lose by a lot
we need to get it together and figure out what is wrong
we all need to want it just as much as I know I do
there is something missing and that is confidence in each other
we need to trust each other and know everytime we give or get the ball we need to trust what we are going to do with the ball
Do we want it?
Or do we just put in all of those hours to lose?
All I can say is I want it and we should all try and turn this around like I know we can.

So much drama is sometimes nice to get away from. Even though it ended different then it could've I believe it was fun while it lasted and not what I needed during basketball. Basketball is starting to go alright, it is annoying and dramatic at times but when I just play my game it goes good. I am so happy I have great friends that are so supportive of everything I do. Love you katie Lucas!! (:

The Vikings are making ot so far this year. They have had rough years in the past and now have decided to "bring it" this year. The game that they played the Dallas Cowboys has been very fun to watch. To be honest I expected them to get beat, by alot! They have really been aggresive and showed me a side of them I have never seen before. They definitely deserved this win and I can't wait to watch their game next week. Which will hopefully be another win, although it will be a tough match.

One star twinkling in the sky
All the others together in their colonies
Throwing each other out until they find the brightest star
As they shoot down twinkling, slowly getting dimmer
until that one star's light is completely gone.
The remaining stars lights getting brighter as this happens
They invite the next brightest star into their colony
Over and over repeating this situation.
The stars getting thrown out and giving up.
The people on the ground
Making a wish upon the star that is shooting down
Maybe just giving it enough hope to go back up into the sky
Lifting the star up and giving it another chance to be the brightest.

Typing class with Katie and Aaron is just soo much fun.

Not counting the counless times we get in trouble from our teacher but as we type, chatting about; we get our homework done without doubt. The class is not bad and sometimes fun. We get off task easily and Aaron sucks his thumb. Katie gets teased often as me and Aaron are a coughin'.

Aaron

I keep stepping in
Into the danger zone
Not knowing why
Just asking to get hurt
Repeatedly telling myself no
But I continually go
Just stop
no more
I'm done with you
Just leave me alone.