When can you tell
that you are in that spot
A few notches outside of your comfort zone
Not knowing how to get out
trapped inside
Asking and pleading for help but no one is listening
No one will help
You have tried
Tried so hard to get out
You get out for one evening
Right back where you were in doubt
The feeling of pain
And definately no gain
When you are put in this situation
And you know you can answer with
I have friends and family that I care too much about
My sports are my life
Why would I want to throw it all away
I definately wouldn't
I love my life the way it is
My family, my friends
And working hard everyday to be on the top for sports
This indeed is my comfort zone

Those big brown eyes staring up at me

her wanting to be just the same

almost like staring in the mirror when I look at her


her constant pleasure with life


Enjoyment in the littlest of things


walking behind me


in my footsteps


never looking back


trying to keep up with me


trying and trying until she gets it right


miss placing her steps on the way


wants to be at the top right next to me


doesn't want to be known as the youngest


she wants to be known and wants to be out there


just like I do not the one hidden


Walking along through life's journey


Me and my sister...

Walking past once and a while with the constant feeling of happiness everytime I do.

Not knowing where or when to take the chance.

Wanting more than now but feeling less.

Not sure of what would happen.

Would I even want to?

What would even be diferent?

I talk to you, and when I do it's always nice.

Just not knowing. Deal or No Deal.

I guess just not the perfect time.

How long am I going to say that?

I think sooner or later it is just your chance to do it.

What am I waiting for...
I guess the feeling of no
The feeling that every girl hates to feel
The one that all aches in the pit of our stomachs somewhere
Deep down
Trying to come out
Trying to show the person we care
in everyway possible...

Tonight...
The excitement of staying out way past my bed time on a school night gives me some excitement. Also, the fact I am with a friend all night and my parents are actually letting me. I'm going to New Moon. I have been so excited for the longest time and then the tickets were all sold out before I could get any. So now Sam and I gget to go to Owatonna to see it at midnight- on a school night.

Annabelle...
The sweetest girl you will ever meet
She always has a smile
She just brightens up my whole day when I see her
There is no way I can be mad with her because she is always happy.
Walking strong and proud with a smile on her face.
Sharing her joy and happiness with anyone she talks to.
Passing it around to everyone.
The funniest, sweetest, cutest girl you will ever meet.
She is so original everyday she has a new story or idea to share.
If you don't know her you are missing out.
You should get to know this wonderful girl.
Beleive me you won't regret it. (:

Now tell me does it matter Up or Down

Well not to me anymore that is

Last year so important until my injury

Now it is as if I can try and try but not be good enough

Someone is always faster stronger and even better

Well they sure think so atleast

Well why as humans when this happens do we tell ourselves to stop trying

I guess because whats going to come out of trying harder

The Joy and pride of knowing your competing with the best

The time on the court

Don't people intimidate you

Keep trying

Even if you don't know what is going to come out of it

It should be good

Just give yourself the pride of knowing you gave 100% everyday

Every practice, every game

Thats all they can ask. Period.

If you do this you will surely have great pride with yourself

You will also make it far, farther than you have ever imagined you cuold.

They will put you where they want to.

Not always the spot you would wish for, but they know whats best.

For you and the team.

Why do people in high school pretend we can't get through life without a boyfriend?

Why do people sit waiting for an opportunity to be with someone

When people ask me why do you feel like that, I wish I could?

I always answer...

Whats better then staying up late talking to a best friend

Falling asleep to the rain pattering on your windows

Sitting by the fire in the middle of winter wrapped in a blankey

Feeling the warm sand creep between your toes as you walk along the beach

Doing new crazy things with your best friends

Trying a new food

Waking up early to make waffles

The feeling of accomplishment you have after a good run

Making the winning shot in a basketball game

None of these have to do with a guy...

You can have so much fun with a best friend or just with your family.

Spend your life loving it not focusing on not being in a relationship

You will then realize you've done things you've never done before or you will look at what you are doing in a complete opposite way.

Thinking....

Have you heard the song cinderella, by Steven Curtis

It is about a dad and his daughter and how she is growing up and soon she won't be his anymore.

I think this song brings back many memories...

When I was younger my dad and I were very close

I would remember he would be the one to wake me up in the morning and he would chase me through the house, we would then go down to the kitchen and make pancakes together and do dishes and all having fun all of the way. We would then run to somewhere like Home Depot where he would figure out a new project for the house and I would help him build it. In this song it talks about how the little girl has no care in the workd but her father, as he is sitting with piles of work but he still finds a lot of time to spend with her.

As she gets older she asks the dad to approve her prom dress and date.

I think as I have gotten older me and my dad have drifted a bit; but we still are close.

The days with the boyfriend talk has already happened which got some taking used to since he wants to be the only guy that I like. But with three daughters he decided to get used to it. This really has to do with this song because the dad feels like his little girl is getting taken away by other guys. The last verse is about how she is getting married and this is so happy but at the same time very sad for the father. He feels like his little girl is leaving.

But I would like my dad to know I will always be there and no guy can take me away from him, and I still miss the mornings waking up and him being my world.