The lost girls trying to find where they could best fit in
Finding it tonight
In this lonely pool of familiar faces
Learning and being reminded of what they had forgotten
Turning that emptiness into endless lulls of happiness
Filling each others missing parts
Joined back together like six peas in a pod
Ending up right in the spot where they belong
Even through all the wandering into new and different crowds
They ended up in the place where they can mess around and be themselves...
the end

Her smile as she races to greet me at my door
Her lovely face when she wakes me up in the morning.
Her curious spunk as she wanders through everything in the house.
Her playful spirit as she chases her ball and squeaks her toys.
Her loving nature, nurturing everything around her.
Why can't our lives be as simple and as happy as a dogs'.
Why do we let little things affect us so greatly.
We should just live our short lives making everything we possibly can out of them instead of just trying to hit all the drama.

Basketball is finally over...
This season was definitely not my favorite.
It was very sad letting the seniors travel off in their own direction though.
It was a very emotional time for our team.
I am dreading the time to say good bye to all of my friends living here.
And dreading my very last basketball game. Just hoping it will be a good one where I play well and leave it all in the court. Saying good bye is always a hard time but we need to just think that was the beginning of our lives and college will be just a new start to show everyone who you really are.

As I lie in my bed not asking to be anywhere else... Under the warm covers that bury my face. Your face comes into my mind. I try and get it to leave. Down to the in existence away from here. Anywhere but with me. I briefly think of a different topic but you are still wandering in the back of my mind. You will not escape. I ask you to leave but you will park down and hold your ground. I doze off with your smile locked deep within my soul. Dreaming of the most beautiful times. The times where we were together laughing and dreaming the day away together. We gaze into each others eyes... The loud buzzer sounds and awakes me from my peaceful doze. I putz around knowing that now is when reality sets in. I will face you and pretend that in the very pit of my soul you are not there. I will pretend that the little things you say to me don't affect me even the slightest. I will pretend that I want to be there with you in those long awkward hallways. When deep down the only place I want to be is back under those warm covers... Putting aside all of my worries of the day and thinking about one and only one thing.

the four walls surrounding me slowly closing in
As I'm sitting in my lifeless room
lying in my big comfy bed where I've been all weekend
A war going on on my stomach
A tsunami in my head
Two eyes wishing and wanting to get up and do something
But one body too exhausted to move

The cries she lets out every night when his big hand, the one that she trusts comes down and hits her with great force. She hates it she hates it all. She is scared and can't even go to her closest friends. If she would tell them, their instict would be to tell her to leave him. The truth is she can't because she loves him. The bottom of her heart screams out his name and waits to see him everyday. She stares into his eyes and sometimes forgets what he really does to her. The harm he causes. When she stares into his eyes and looks at his innocent smile she sees a whole different side. The side of him that sings her to sleep or makes her dinner. The side she loves. How did it get to the point where she can't even leave him even after he does this to her. Love = hate, beauty, and tears. All three can happen but when does it get to the point you should escape from love. Probably when you can't even communicate to your closest friends about what is on your mind or what is going on. Love hurts sometimes so bad you need to get out of it for a while.

I'm lost in the middle of the ocean. You say it's best for me to be out here alone. But the truth is I'm drowning. I need your aid someone to send out their life boat and come out and save me. As every day passes without you, I'm getting pulled deeper and deeper into the insanity. Your falsification dragging me to the bottom. Begging and pleading for help but no one can hear me.
Even if the current pulls me all the way and I hit rock bottom I will sit tight and wait for you. Just for you. The crashing waves hitting the shore. As I'm waiting for the waves to take me with them. Trying to get up to the warm shore where I can be tickled pink with your presence. Where my smile can shine as bright as the rays of that golden sun, just like they used to.